Being freelance is incredibly consuming, it can take you all in, by this, I mean the line between free time and freedom are incredibly blurred.
Free time against freedom
Since going solo, I’ve noticed my time is split up with being a husband, father and worker – which I find incredibly tough to manage. Sometimes, I feel the incredible guilt about loading up my diary without a thought of “oh I said id cook dinner tonight” or “I really do need to spend time with my wife today”.
This is easily done of course, you get an offer that you couldn’t possibly turn down and accept it thinking “another £xxx(xxxxxxx – ok maybe not that many) to the bank, and this’ll mean we can take a holiday at the end of this one and thats my “family” time ticked off.
Did I just write “family time ticked off”?
I want to make money, i’ll be honest, I know it’s super hip to say you do it for the love of creation and making the users happy – which obviously is a thing I like too, but to feed my wife, kid and dog is much more important to me (but I wont hustle).
Saying no is a nightmare to me, will I get work again, next week, this year, ever?
Why do I class work as more important than seeing my daughter grow up?
Fuck sake – did I just write “Why do I class work as more important than seeing my daughter grow up?”?
The fix to this is simply to say no, PICK your work to do, come on Mike – its as simple as that.. is it?
So why cant we all do this?
Fear – fear that one day we will get found out, fear we wont get work again.
So Mike, when you read this in a year or so, I bet it was ok you said no that one time in 2015 to a client who wanted an custom website built in 2 hours, go out and walk Ralph with Robyn and tell Emma you love her..and cook her dinner.